SIMPLIFY YOUR LIFE

Random Thoughts...

2011-08-07T23:07:00.000-07:00

You closed your heart so nobody can hurt you. You take it so cool knowing it hurts like hell. You moved on coz you're afraid to look back. You run as fast as you can thinking the past might catch up on you. You brave the storm whenever it hits you. You stand on solid ground when in reality you're stuck here. You wrote a whole page about her when you're nothing more than a line in her book.

Just some random thoughts that came up in my mind...

Ramadhan Is Here...

2011-08-06T20:38:00.000-07:00

From HR Family. =)

Soul Money!

2011-08-06T20:29:00.000-07:00

I've always on the journey to find true happiness, but I couldn't exactly define what happiness is.

All along I went near and far to find the meaning of life cause people say when you found your happiness then that is when you will feel true happiness and satisfaction towards life.

But I kept on asking myself what are the things that make me satisfied in doing. I realized it wasn't necessary to find something I love to do to make me happy.

I do those certain things like having a steady career no matter I like it or not because it allow me to do something I've been wanting to do from the salary I get.

Let's face it, money enables us to do anything, good things, great things!

It make me happy and fully satisfied. I learnt a hard lesson in life about money these days. When it came to money, I always appreciate its importance and its value.

A wise man once told me, MONEY HAS A SOUL, owh how true that sentence proves to be in my life.

LOVE MONEY!

Writer's Block

2011-07-26T00:08:00.000-07:00

Ever had that Writer's Block moment? Every writer experience it, and so am I. At this moment I can't even think what to write next; on my story or lyrics to a song. And when I'm unable to write something (lest anything) I tend to...

Life At 25 Chapter One: Re-Birth.

2011-03-07T11:28:00.000-08:00

Ever wondered when you feel like having something to say yet you spend 30 minutes in front of the screen trying to come up with words but to no avail?

I had that and it took me a year plus to get any words written on this blog. It's wasn't because I didn't have much to say but it was more like keeping it all inside and let it cocoon till the time is right to let it out.

And that time is now.

Looking back to the last post it was dated Saturday, March 6 of 2010. Now it's Tuesday, March 8 of 2011. It's been a year since I left the blogging world.

Much have changed since then, the MUMBs have outgrown themselves. Few have started working and the rest are still continuing their studies.

Although the "family" name hasn't been associated to the group since, but the friendship between the guys are still intact. Commitment towards other matters limits our interaction hence we don't get in touch regularly and in my opinion even facebook didn't help much at all. So much for connecting friends online.

So what's new with me if you ask, its everything.

Excuse me when I seem dramatical but its how I truly felt during the early months after I had stopped writing. Lifeless, lost and even confused like a compass without a needlepoint.

But friends and family pulled me through those tough times when I felt life was at a dead end. Their faith had motivated me to stand on my feet and "feel the ground where I'm standing". By then I had realized I had been looking at life the wrong way all this time.

And at 25, life has just started out for me...

(To Be Continued)

Welcoming The Month Of March...

2010-03-06T18:18:00.000-08:00

February's gone and now comes the month of March. It was a hectic month for me and when I looked back at the calendar it was all full of X and O's, things to do and places to go to *PHEW~* talk about making myself productive. Heck I was so busy I got myself sick...TWICE! =S

I had a clinic appointment for my appendices on the 3th and as usual for the MUMBs we had a small gathering at my house for ROJAK NIGHT on the 4th. I got called up to work as a tour guide on the 11th but little did I know that the job was meant only as an observer (WHICH I DON'T GET PAID...FUCK!!!). But it was a good experience anyways so yea whatever.

A friend of the MUMBs, Jessy Chong invited us to her house for CNY on the 14th. The place was deep inside Tutong, in Kpg Kiudang to be exact.

I've started looking for a job and I did get a called up for an interview with Darussalam Holdings as a tour guide but I passed it on coz they were looking for a full time while I was only asking for a part time job.

I celebrated Maulud Nabi with my two close friends Adi Syahmi & Rahimin a.k.a Dminz Flamez. Had a band session with my singer which went a bit frustrating but still I believe we can managed it and hopefully my singer can sing well to my songs. Plus I went out with the REDS and played bowling at the Utama Bowling Center.

The last MUMB activity for the month of February was taking part in the Futsal Tournament which out of 6 games MUMB FC only won once against G.O.L FC by a margin of 2-1 in which I scored one of the goals yeaapieee~!! :D

The month of February was quite exciting for me, now let's see what's in store for me in March. :)

Permata Hatiku ( An Original Song)

2010-02-05T10:11:00.001-08:00

This is a song that I wrote back like two weeks ago. It's dedicated to my mom who has been so much caring about me throughout the years of my life up until now, and still I don't know how much I can repay for her love and devotion to her sons needs and wants. This goes out specially to you mom. =)

If only I could upload the video here it would be really cool and make it convenient for all to see but I guess I'll just give you the links to it then and you can copy and paste it. Enjoy~!

http://www.facebook.com/AnwarHR?v=app_2392950137&ref=profile#!/video/video.php?v=283471232739

(Facebook link)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xpibv0eX0Uc

(Youtube link)

Cheers~ all~!
Anwar HR

Permata Hatiku

2010-02-05T10:11:00.000-08:00

Goodbye January..Hello February~

2010-01-31T19:24:00.000-08:00

There are a lot of things that I want to share with you readers, apart from my admittance to the hospital ward a week back ago, most of the time I had a lot of fun during the month of January with the MUMB Family, writing down my CV & resume for my work applications and playing on my guitar composing songs and melodies.

Been hanging out with the MUMB family on the 2nd January for that BBQ outing. Then there was that Sisha Night with the guys and two more gatherings with them throughout the weeks that followed. The Rojak Night was supposed to be last 28th but got postponed to the 4th of this February.

I've been making myself busy writing application letters for a suitable job and printing out my CVs lately. There are 3-4 posts that I'm targeting, we'll see how that goes, hopefully I'll be called up soon for an interview after sending it.

There's one thing that's been bugging me lately since I've gotten out of the hospital. My throat and mouth hurts...like a lot. It's painful for me to eat and swallow my food these days, my mom says prolly its coz of the anesthetic effect. Hmm. I remembered few of my friends had tonsillitis before so I googled em' up for the symptoms and you know what, I'm having nearly all the symptoms for tonsillitis, I just hope its not that terrible that I need to go another operation just to fix it.

HECAS form is already available online just so you all know. Those who wants to apply better do it now coz the dateline is in March. It's better to apply it and send it early than waiting at the last minute right. So good luck who's ever going to go studying at a higher institution.

I guess that's it for now...till next time, will try to update more. Cheers~!

Home Sweet Home...

2010-01-25T00:20:00.000-08:00

After 3 days of staying in the hospital for food poisoning, i really miss home, so what I did? called my brother to pick me up the earliest possible since hey, I'm feeling better anyway...okay, not quite but still I'll recover. Arriving home I found my bedroom completely in a mess! like as if someone just threw a big party inside. Possible suspects: my lil brothers and his friends...hmm. The first thing I went looking for was my baby, yeap, my guitar. I really miss playing it but the moment I strum the strings they were all out of tunes..Gaah!! Have to re-tune it again hmpf~!

I'm listening to Pixel Apartment's songs right now...Kinda suits with the mood I'm having right now. Checked out the calendar I realized it's gonna be 3 days to MUMB's Family's Rojak Night =D Looking forward to that but *thinking* I have to watch out everything that I eat from now on.

And speaking of eating, wanna know how i got food poisoning? the culprit was Indo Mee...yes ladies and gentlemen the famous Mee Goreng brand. I vomited and got really sick. Not only that, after being admitted to the hospital I found out that my appendices got swollen and needs to be surgically removed. So without hesitation I quickly agree to be operated and Alhamdulillah it went well. But I didn't get the chance to see myself how big my appendices got swollen only my mom said it was big as her thumb..yikes! =S

FYI having to experience that was actually one of my biggest fear that I had to confront with but I'm glad I got through it. Fyuhh~!

I'm still feeling the pain up till now and I'm taking panadol as painkillers. Hopefully the pharmacy will give me a stronger one coz I need a bigger dose than just panadols.

So I'm back home, safe and sound, mom just came in telling me to get some rest, don;t lift heavy stuff and don't do anything stressful and prolly I'll be grounded for the time being..nothing that I did wrong really...just for my own good since I'm always trying to get out of the house. Believe me, it can be reaaaally boring inside the house when you don't have a job yet..and owh yea speaking of which I think I better find a part time job soon..studying is still my main priority, so yea, work comes as a last option. Let's see where I can go further this time :D

Now, that I've finally finish updating my blog, an early warning to you out there, below is a picture of my body after the operation...So that means anyone who's faint-hearted are advised NOT to see this and may as well EXIT this blog...Thank You!

(P.S: I deliberately left some spaces below...Just so you know. =p)

Written on the 25th January 2010.

Anwar HR

One Week Janes'...Times 3.

2009-12-30T22:46:00.000-08:00

"Heartless Is Your True Nature" - One Week Jane

The Last Hurrah.

2009-10-28T20:31:00.001-07:00

A week more and it's freedom calling. Liberation is near in hand. Unfortunately, I'm going out without a bang.

The Last Sunset

2009-10-03T01:34:00.000-07:00

"I didn't mind turning away from the sun

before it vanished into the sea,

no matter how beautiful

the moment it would have been.

Coz your presence next to me

was enough a moment to remember.

And the best picture in mind

was to have my eyes turned away

momentarily to you.

Coz it is all the view that I needed to see".

AnwarHR

Celebrating Hari Raya & Grandfather's 81st Birthday.

2009-09-22T13:32:00.000-07:00

This year's 1st Day of "Raya Balik Kampong" gathering/reunion was a blast!!! =D Most of my cousins were there to celebrate the birthday of our Grandfather Bongsu Bin Tasan who is now age 81 years old.

Doa Selamat

Cutting of the birthday cake

Having a moment with one of his granddaughters (The newly-wed Umi)

With my beloved Mum

The food was great especially the lamb chop, I wouldn't have expected a more better outcome than today's event but who knows what will happen next year right? Hopefully it will stay the same.

Below is a video recording (and a blooper) of our greetings to our Grandfather.

Video Greeting 1

Video Greeting 2

Blooper

Each year at the end of the function we'd always have this family picture together with our Grandfather and each family is given a team nickname that alludes to a local football team from where each family lives around Brunei.

Ban FC

Temburong FC

Mumong City FC

Mumong Utd FC

Mata-Mata FC

Sg. Teraban FC

Congratulations to one of my cousins Ayyub Kamaluddin who has just received the Yayasan scholarship offer to study in the U.K and coming this 25th September insya-Allah there will be a Hari Raya gathering again at his house and a Doa Selamat as well.

Ayyub With his proud parents

Taking a picture with the royalty (Ayyub is at far left)

Taking a picture with The Grandfather

I bid him farewell and good luck on his journey to further his knowledge abroad, if I'm not mistaken it will be in the University of London or was it at the Emperial College, I couldn't remember exactly which one but heck, what's important is to Ayyub "Do your family proud and come back with the highest degree".

Here are some of the memorable moments during the celebration.

AnwarHR

1st Day Raya...Balik Kampong~!!!

2009-09-21T11:48:00.000-07:00

It's always the first day of Hari Raya that my family will drive for 2 hours all the way to the birthplace of my mom which is in Kampong Kasat in Lumapas to visit The Grandfather (just saying it sounded cool like The Godfather) hehe~!!

So this year that tradition continues and it's probably either gonna be me or my lil bro's behind the wheels. I could still remember clearly last year's Raya we celebrated in Kasat, meeting up with all of my cousins and spending time with them and having a blast.

Right now I'm all prepared and ready to go, just waiting for my parents to get back home so we can convoy with two cars. Insya-Allah I will update my blog with pictures later on when I get back from there.

For now, take care and enjoy your Raya peeps~!! =)

AnwarHR

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri...Maaf Zahir & Batin.

2009-09-20T20:01:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's Raya!!! Yeay!!!

Screamed a boy at the top of his lung as he runs past the house. The sound of my neighbor's chattering distinctively about what to buy for Sungkai on the last day of fasting and few young men probably brothers working hard painting the house and putting some very last minute touch on it.

Yup, Ramadhan is coming to an end and the month of celebration will begin. Starting at 12.00a.m later it' going to be Boom! Boom! Boom! (no no not that B.E.P song) Kids are going to go out tonight and play firecrackers that can be heard miles apart so parents and adults hold on to your car keys coz there's gonna be explosions that can trigger your car alarm and I mean countless of explosions here (I know, can be very disturbing and annoying at times right?)

This Syawal let us pray for a new beginning in life, let us celebrate the new month with warm and love towards our family and relatives as well as friends. So lastly let me take this opportunity to say "Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin", please forgive me for whatever wrongdoings that I have done and said in the past and lets move on forward to a new chapter with new purposes and objectives in life. Amin~!

AnwarHR

The SECRET.

2009-09-20T14:30:00.000-07:00

Wanna know the secret to a good life? If you ask me what it is, well, I've just told you so...It's The Secret. It's the most amazing thing that can happen in your life, its a gift and believe me LIFE is too precious to ignore it after reading this post.

The Secret is all about the Law Of Attraction. It states that you attract what you think about and it becomes real no matter you want it or not. For an easier understanding of what the Law Of Attraction (LOA) means it is simply saying that Like Attracts Like and "You get what you think about, whether wanted or unwanted" - NOTELAY.COM.

You can check it out and read all about it @ www.thesecret.tv or click on the link at the bottom right of this screen for further details on what The Secret has to offer.

AnwarHR

The Reunion.

2009-09-16T15:22:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Ajim & Fizah for inviting me to the Reunion Sungkai with the SMSA crowd but I'm truly sorry I could not make it to the function. It was nice to hear a call from Datul inviting me to chill out with them right after the Sungkai and I was able to take some of the pictures when we were all at the arcade Seria. I'm really glad to see them back that night like Flo, Datul, Ajim, Alim, Jason, Jamri, Beb, Fizah & Erwan gathered on one table (okay make it two tables) and it reminded me back of the time when we would all gathered up at this one long table at the school canteen either during recess or private study time. Yes, I'm being nostalgic right now so deal with it! =p

Here's the pics from that night.

This night was also gonna be the last time I will meet Bebs coz she's going to fly back to U.K on Friday. Hmm~ I'm gonna miss you Bebsy have a safe journey back yea~ ='(

Anwar HR

Love, Obligation & Soul mates.

2009-09-14T04:52:00.000-07:00

Soul mate. It struck a chord inside my heart when I utter that word. It was from an article in the Weekend Bulletin that I read few days ago. Soul mate. That's what I've been hoping to find in my life, that someone who could be there for me and be with me everyday of my life. I believe I never ask that much, just a person who has the same enthusiasm when talking with me as much as I do to her. Coz talking will lead to interest and the more we blabber even the smallest things we never get bored or tired (well unless we're talking non-stop 24/7) and we get to know more about the other person at the end of the line in a telephone call, on msn chatroom or better yet face-to-face.

I've always thought how would my soul mate be like. But after reading that article it really made me re-think back my criteria of having one. Maybe I could consider this lucky since I'm currently not attached to anyone it gives me time to re-assess my priorities and wants in LIFE and surely enough along the way in the near future God-willing fate will lead me to HER. Whoever she is.

As of now I find myself in total lost, and since I've lost my bestfriend I have tried to find comfort in other people but it's never the same without her. Maybe it wasn't meant to be perhaps not now or not forever.

Back to what I was saying about soul mate. Time will tell and hopefully Love will come and find its way into my heart.

Anwar HR

09/09/09

2009-09-10T13:48:00.000-07:00

The Memory (09-09-09)

A picture reminds us the changes we've gone through
It reminds us the joy and madness we share together
How we met for the very first time and said Hi
It was this moment we created a bond
Nearly two and a half years will past
The next two months will be our last
Lets cherish the moments we had
Forgive the things that made us sad

An experience we won't forget
we take in the good things and we throw out the bad
The pictures will be a reminder to our history
And for years to come it will be our legacy

This 30 months has been quite a ride
Surely we'll miss the sound and sight
And friendship will lasts and never die
But for now it's time to say goodbye.

*Going on our own roads we'll reunite and get connected again; someday in the near future*

AnwarHR

2 Months To Go~!! (Minus 90 Days Left)

2009-09-03T14:10:00.000-07:00

Can't wait for November, two things to look for, MY BIRTHDAY and THE LAST MONTH OF MY COLLEGE DAYS woohoo~!! =D

For these last 2 months of my college life, I'm going to focus on my objectives that I've set before

- Finish my T.O, I.M & Marketing Assignments

- Study, Study, Study (for the year end exam)

Not that I'm boasting or anything but I've been doing pretty well in my studies lately. Currently I've got every Merit for my unit subjects and only one pass which I received for the first assignment on I.M. Now I'm just waiting for my E.M result which I'm expecting to finally get a Distinction for it. I know it seems that I'm hoping too much but I know deep down inside my heart that I did pretty well on it. I'm also looking forward for the S.T assignment which will be given God-willing by this Saturday I guess.

So, I guess that's just it for this post for now. =)

AnwarHR

A New Beginning.

2009-08-20T22:52:00.000-07:00

Out with old and in with new. I haven't update anything yet coz I haven't felt like blogging anything. Owh about the title yea it is a new beginning alright. Wait and see =)

Day 12 - St. Anger

2009-08-14T05:46:00.000-07:00

Tonight's blog will be posted short and simple with dash points that is:

- Morning -> Woke up & wash my car than went online and facebooking.

- Midday -> Went for Friday prayer with cousin.

- Afternoon -> Drove to Jerudong for the Bridex show with few MUMB friends.

- Evening -> Drove to Tutong and back again towards home.

- Night -> Went online, facebooking & writing assignment draft. Finally off to bed.

Day 11 - Break Me Down

2009-08-13T04:03:00.000-07:00

I need to be broken down into several parts just to check out what the F*** is wrong with me for this whole day. Maybe my brain needs a re-configuration and set my heart into a motionless bastard I am. Before I could see the smile on my face, a genuine sincere happiness I once had, now when I look into the mirror All I could see is a person so helpless I could feel myself slowly dying away. I'm not being Emo and all but that's just how I feel. The wider I open my eyes to the cold hard truth and the harsh reality of the world that I'm living in the more I hate about myself and the pathetic typical being I am all along. I feel the need to detached myself from the others so I could live and be free from the thoughts and expectations people generally assume I would become. Am I making any sense or am I just talking crap into this blog post? I don't really know but all I can do for now is struggling to make it out alive from this hell hole place I seem to stuck in. Feeling disgruntled about something, yes I do so I'm learning to hate, learning to despise it all, the things that makes me sick to see, live and experience it. I won't bow in to the general prespective that we are living in, I'll send a big F*** OFF~ to those who only see beautiful things coming for them while ignoring the real world that awaits them in the future. You're blinded by the influence and power of the privileges we think we held and deserve forever.Well bad news to all coz it's not going to last long. But nonetheless, by the way we still view and think, it's never going to end anyway.

Tonight is going to be MUMB's movie night out. We're going to see the premiering of the movie District 9. At least something's up to cheer me for a while.

-END-

Day 7 - 8, 9 & 10 - Heartbreaker

2009-08-11T05:51:00.000-07:00

I know its been 3 days since I've lat updated my blog..well, I'm been swarm with works from college which I want to get it done as fast and early as I could. I know most of the dateline for my work are in a few weeks and a month time but I really want to finish it up so I can have my relaxation later on.

So now I'm online and I'm going to share my experience attending my cousin Umi's wedding ceremony last Sunday. But before that CONGRATULATIONS to Umi & Mateen on their wedding day, it was a beautiful day indeed for the married couple and I couldn't be more happy for them =)

The day started with my cousin Yoyoi asking me for help the night before during the "Malam Bemukun" at his house to help him out with the setting up of camps and seating arrangements..which I was too late coz when I arrive there everything was already set up =S (sory Cuz). Before that as soon as I arrived at my cousin's house my long time childhood buddy Adam Groves was there too. He was there to shoot film on the special occasion. I didn't realized that my cousins knows him well, they say it right alright Brunei is a small country hehe.

The wedding took a whole day to finish till I got this massive pain in my head. Had to go to sleep and rest as soon as I reached back home.

Monday & Tuesday.
Back to college and home sweet 2nd home~ =p Honestly I forgot what I was doing for the last two days but it was alright coz I went hanging out with the MUMB group and I think that was the only highlight of it. Been busy balancing college work and social life, trying so hard to keep myself focus for the BIG FINALS prolly in October of this year.I'm going to study hard even if it means pressuring myself to the end.But I know I have to confront it and take it all one by one.

Day 6 - Saturday, 8th August 2009

2009-08-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

9.22pm

I don't feel like going over to my cousin's function tonight. Tho I do feel really hungry and there's gonna be a lot of food at the place. Maybe I'd stop by in a while later on. I still haven't taken my bath coz I'm still uploading some of the MUMB pics during lunch out @ Soto Rindu, at Giant, Rimba. I forgot what was the date that time. Owh well the main thing was that we had fun eating out together as one family =)

I'm listening to D'Masiv song called Cinta Sampai Disini as of now and on repeat hmm I guess I'm being mellow and all emo right now. I don't know what's happening to me today or maybe I do know but I'm just trying to ignore it all together coz the last thing I want to do is to think about that thing and be down about it all night. Not the kind of start to my weekend night =(

I forgot one other thing and that was Shazwan's plan to treat MUMB to dinner night and eat lambchop at TT Blue in Gadong tonight. Sorry bros couldn't make it coz of my earlier engagement. Strange when most people would celebrate it with a "Gambus" night before the wedding ceremony tomorrow but my cousin is celebrating it with a "Mukon" night hehe and I didn't even know what it was before =S Owh well I might just go anyways.

So that's all for now from me, prolly would update my blog later on. Cheers~ and hope you all enjoy your weekend night =) Assalamualaikum & good night.

Day 3 and 4 - 5 - Waiting For My Butterfly

2009-08-04T16:01:00.000-07:00

5th August 2009

7.03am
Good morning! It's Wednesday and college's only half day for today yeay~!! =D first thing to do later at college is go to the library and print out my L&C paper. Then write my EM draft next. Hope today's going to be a good day Amin~! Will be back to blog at lunchtime see ya~!

2.48pm
Its really unlucky to have sore throat today hmm...I blame the haze huh~! coz it can deteriorate my health since I got asthma. Since I wasn't feeling well i took a permission to go out of college to o to the clinic. in Sg. Hanching or Salambigar i forgot where it is. Anyway, after arriving i went straight to register myself at the counter. Then i was sent to the flu screening room for my check up..turns out bad but treatable. So i got a 2 days mc starting today and tomorrow. I went out on an early lunch with my friend Hafiz at some restaurant at the back of The Arch and met with Boy when we went to The Mall. The three of us went strolling around inside the Mall and got bored so we when to Komunis cd store and bought myself The Terminator 4 movie.At last i can watch it heee~ =D After buying the CD i realized i forgot to take back my IC and change money at the clinic so i rush to the place and gladly it was still there =) fyuuh~! Went for my Zuhur prayer for awhile and now I'm home.Feeling a bit sleepy at the moment so I'm going to rest and take a short nap coz I'm tired after a whole morning of going out..need rest yo~! Then after that, Work Work Work~!!

6th August 2009

7.40am

Sorry for the lack of update from last night...But since 5pm yesterday I was pretty much held up on something else till I forgot to blog anything about yesterday till night time. Well I woke up around 5pm+ and went out grocery shopping..alone =S huhu and then I got a message from my friend inviting me to go to Jerudong for a Tongkeng feast with the MUMB family. After that went back home and had a midnight call with someone =D I don't want to jinx anything first coz I'm going with the flow ;) hehe!

7th August 2009

8.19am
Couldn't sleep the whole night.Chatted with her as usual but thinking back and forth about something. Going to survey some tyres to buy and change my old rusty one. Thinking of bringing my car to the workshop too for a check up. Going to Friday prayer later at Seria mosque and then convoy back to bandar with Feez. 4.30pm later watch football match Kota Ranger vs Kilanas FC. I'm feeling a bit "angau" I don't know why. It's morning btw and I'm going to have my breakfast today but now feeling a bit sleepy hmm.Blog in a bit while later.

8th August 2009

2.39am
It's Saturday and no the time is correct as it is 2.39am at the moment.Just got back from The Mall cineplex watching G.I Joe movie with the MUMBs. Yesterday was alright, went for Friday prayers and zoom off to Bandar with Feez. In the afternoon watched a football game between Kilanas FC vs Kota Ranger FC with Ezam & Feez. Kilanas FC won by a landslide with a 7-0 margin. Got tired after that so went straight home and slept for like 5 hours and woke up and ate my dinner.Then went to The Mall round 10pm+ and met Feez at "The Office" hehe.Right now I'm uploading some pics from our Lunch out at Soto Rindu place at Giant, Rimba. The last time I uploaded it got failed so hopefully this time works..Amin~!

Day 2 - Beautiful Veins & Bloodshot Eye

2009-08-03T16:38:00.000-07:00

7.38am
Woke up around 7+ today and I'm already late for college! =S

1.10pm
I was back home by 12.32pm and went straight to perform my Zuhur prayer and have lunch. Luckily I wasn't caught late by the teacher when I arrive college this morning. But I got a bit of a headache, more like pain on top of my left eye and my left eye even hurts too =S hmm..I can feel the pain when I pressed a bit but now the pain is fading but I'm still in a bit of a daze. I'm a bit off today and my mind was wandering elsewhere. Something is trying to pull me down but I'm trying real hard to ignore it. Last night I couldn't get myself to do my work coz some obstruction was in the way and instead i watched tv. So tonight I'm going to do my work, prolly right after I get back from college would be best to do it.I'm going off to college by 1.30pm so I will update again later coz its nearly time.

7.46pm

Arrive back at home after buying some cigarettes for my grandma and pumped my tyre coz it was a bit flat plus need to change to a new tyre soon though. I prayed and ate pizza which was delicious. College on the other hand was as usual when it comes to ST class..SLEEPY!.Going to do my work right after I read the news about DPMM FC VS HOME UTD..Heard there was an uproar and a big commotion about the referee's poor call and decision-making, don't know who's side is right but it looks to be interesting to read.

10.28pm
Just finished L&C and now for my reward is to watch this movie called Miss March 2009 I think. Its really a funny story and right after that I'm going to bed.Not much of an update I know but this will do.Chalo~!

Day One - Learn To Hate

2009-08-02T22:11:00.000-07:00

"Moan"-Day, 3rd August 2009

1.22pm
It's nearly 1.30pm and I was back home around 12 plus just now. Had a punctured tyre at the traffic light Serusop on the way to Terunjing so I went asking for help from a friend, thank God he was there. I'm wee a bit dizzy at the moment probably coz I didn't ate anything for breakfast coz I woke up late as a result of sleeping late around nearly to 3am last night finishing up my project draft. Alhamdulillah it's finally completed for submission. Going back to college and need to explain to Miss Fizah why I was absent from her class in the morning.

5.19pm
I just got back from college, not tiring and I'll be off to the Office by 5.30pm have to report for "duty" hehehe~. Here's an update: Nothing! College was usual E.M started off by answering a case study on some event. My dizzy is gone for now and I had just sent my lil bro some money and stuff to him before I arrived home. Need to do so much work later on at night so hopefully I'll be back by 7 plus. Here are some of the things that I need to work in later:-

- Organize my file

- L&C Homework

- Check out for new ST lesson online

-Week one E.M Assignment draft

- Write acknowledgment for draft project

- Draw up a business plan for the iCentre Think BIG Business Plan Competition

9.26pm
Just got home around 9pm and took my bath.Right now just relaxing for awhile till dinner time and then I'll be doing my college work.My aunts are right in front of me right now discussing about what "kain" to buy and what not. For your info, I got stuck with that "what not" word from Sir Tony & Miss Maz hehehe...Hangout with the MUMB just now and it was fun chilling at CA Mohd Gadong and Karaoke-ing with them at The Mall =)

12.34am
It's really late already to do anything productive,so might as well hit the sack now.Cheers~!

A New Spec For A Wider View...

2009-07-02T18:56:00.000-07:00

Got this new spectacles to use mainly when I'm working on my laptop. This means starting today I have to get use to wearing it huhu. My eyes been hurting for weeks already and the perpetrator is myself..I spend way too many times in front of the laptop doing my work and going online Facebook-ing, Twitter-ing, Youtube-ing, Plurk-ing, Googling and Yahoo-ing wahahahaha~!! Okay that's too much ing-ing at the end but you know what I mean. I got headaches and serious backaches and neck pains so I needed a massage pretty quick to relieve all that stress. Now I'm feeling much more better and hopefully this specs will help me reduce all that agony while I'm doing work.

Thanks to a friend I'm currently watching this TV series called The L Word. It's a drama revolving around a group of lesbian friends, apart of the nudity an sex scenes the storyline is quite good and interesting to follow except for Jenny's character, I can't figure out why must she always cry hmpf =S. The character I'm into was Marina but she was booted out after the first season =( would've love to see her more hehehe =p.

I've just got home after playing football about an hour ago, we lose 3-2 but at least I got a goal assist and my little brother scored the consolation goal =). I'm going to Fresh Air Cafe by 9pm so I'll just stop my writing right here then.

Take Care Millionaires~!!

Cousin Asfahrizan To Andy Elisha (The BIG Wedding Day)

2009-06-28T19:18:00.000-07:00

Hello Millionaires,
First of all good morning to all and hope you can start your day with a smile...It's Monday June 29th 2009 and yesterday was my cousin's BIG wedding function. I can't describe exactly how happy I am for my cousin and wish the same thing would come for me too in the near future (kalau ada rezeki hehe). Anyways there's not much update from me just that for the past two weeks I've been dead sick mostly because I think I spent way too much sitting in front of the laptop and till yesterday finally those recurring headaches stop...at least for now. And I've finish my E.M assignment but the Marketing assignment now that's is challenging to do but I'm confident that I can finish up the last two tasks.

So without further due below are some of the pics I've taken during the wedding of the groom and the bride with many of my relatives and family members.

The Arrival of the Groom

The Groom & The Bride

Selamat Pengantin Baru

2009-06-21T21:04:00.000-07:00

I woke up to a sore throat...uhuks~ uhuks~!! Errgh~!! and it doens't feel good so I went to the hospital to get a check up. The thing I love to get a check up at Belait hospital is because of its fast quality service. You go to the registration counter and it will only take you probably depending on the number of people registering will only take you around 5-8 minutes. Then you go to the OPD and again depending on other people coming to see the doc will only take probably 10-15 minutes of waiting.

the only bad side to it is waiting in line to get the medicine huh~! I hate waiting for one so what i'd do is take the receipt and tell the pharmacy I'd be back in a couple of minutes (or maybe hours depending on the number of people waiting in line too) to get the drugs.

So now I'm back home still having that bit of a sore throat =( and I've been drinking 3 shots of Adem Sari. As of now I'm doing my ASSignment papers Marketing For Tourism & Event Management. I guess that's all for now nothing much interesting happening today but before I go I would like to say a BIG CONGRATULATIONS to my cousin Asfahrizan Bte Hj Ibrahim aka Kaka Pijan on her upcoming wedding. I wish both her and the groom (Andy Elisha) a long lasting happiness..AMIN~!! =D

Reach For You

2009-06-21T03:24:00.000-07:00

I'm reaching out to you with open arms, I'd bare myself out in the coldest night and under the hottest sun, I'd stand my ground under the heavy rain till you see through me and realize that there is nothing to be afraid of when I'm only human. I'm only human.

2009-06-17T03:44:00.000-07:00

Schiller feat. Colbie Caillat

"YOU"

Turn down the silence
Inside my head
Bring back the colours
Of you instead
Further from where I started
Further to go
Keeping my heart under control

Why do I still feel you feel you
And all you've got is to feel you, feel you
All I need is you
All I need is to feel you

Why did you change your mind and run away?
Thoughts of you by my side
Starting to fade
I know that you should be by
So i won't let go
Everyday i'm trying to get close

Why do I still feel you feel you
And all you've got is to feel you, feel you
All I need is you
All I need is to feel you

Stop running all the time
Don’t fight the feeling inside
Cause when you try it hard
Don’t matter where you go it’s deep in your soul (x3)

All i need is to feel you , feel you...

Down With The Sickness!!

2009-06-16T22:06:00.000-07:00

Today is not a good day, I'm sick (rising body temperature+headache) and having a terrible cold. I can't concentrate on whatever I'm doing but I need to write my assignment papers. At times like this I just feel like giving up on everything. I'm losing ground, I'm lacking sleep, my mind keep losing focus and I can't do anything right. I'm weak for the time being.

What's On For Tonight.

2009-06-12T08:05:00.000-07:00

Had this hungry urge to eat KFC Zinger Burger tonight so I went to town to get a bite. The taste was great and it was worth the money I spent. Went home after that and watched downloaded episodes of HIMYM. Tomorrow's the last day of college term but not for me unfortunately coz I've got 2 weeks of work attachment at college starting Sunday...I think.

Listening to YOU by Schiller feat. Colbie Caillat right now. I heard this song and it was really a beautiful take and te lyrics were so melodic and meaningful, I really love this song so much. Another song I keep on listening to lately is Three Days Grace's Gone Forever. What I like mostly about this song is it's guitar intro and from there on I just kept on repeating it over and over again.

Surfing the Facebook saw a music video clip called Anthem Of Our Dying Days by the band Story Of The Year (SOTY for short). It's an old alternative song which I liked to hear before. Can't sleep...yet, and it's already 11.24p.m guess I should pack my things now got to wake up early for B.R (Breakfast Rush) KK Koya Style~!! Haha~!! =p

Goodnight Millionaires!!

Need Help With My ShoutMix =(

2009-06-12T04:59:00.001-07:00

Okay, so guess what, I've been sitting here for nearly an hour trying to put in the ShoutMix Widget codes into my template without much success. Every time it goes error coz of "something-something" and I'm tired figuring out what went wrong. If you guys are reading this and if you know how to do it send me an e-mail on how it i correctly done yea.THANKS!!

The New Layout

2009-06-11T16:58:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Millionaires,
The time is exactly 8.00a.m right now, just finished my cup of tea few minutes ago, it's Friday morning and I don't know why I'm waking up as early as 6.30a.m today. You can see my new layout features and I did this all by myself last night. For today I made some minor adjustments and added up new features to make it look nice.

To start of my day I'm doing some online reading on various articles and checking my Facebook as well. I'm glad that I've done my draft project yesterday but that wasn't the interesting part. It was my appointment day at the hospital ENT unit to check on my left ear. A piece of advice: Don't use that cotton stick to try and get the wax out of the ear, coz you'd make it worse by pushing the earwax more deeper into the ear canal. That's what i had to go through yesterday, the pain while the doc tries to get the earwax out (gross, I know but informational) its better to "hear" it from me (Haha! lame joke there) than you having to go through the ordeal that I went through. Whoa~, I made it sound like it was death-threatening =P.

It just started raining btw (no wonder its dark outside =S). You might guess why I haven't post any poems lately, well that's coz I still don't have anything to write about. Currently I'm still downloading some episodes of HIMYM and its been nothing but fun watching it and having a good time laughing at their every antics. I never thought I could love one particular show this much other, the other sitcom I like to watch is My Wife & Kids.

It's nearly 8.30a.m..I'll be back writing and posting later on again after I have my breakfast. Take care for now Millionaires.

Heroes

2009-06-10T16:45:00.000-07:00

This is another show that I love to watch..I've downloaded every episode and the complete seasons 1-3. My favorite character in the series has got to be Sylar played by Zachary Quinto. He's cool and rugged, evil but confused, dark yet deadly, my type of villain. The bad-guy look he portrayed really suits him well and he is definitely an awesome character.

The many looks of Zachary Quinto

Can't wait to download and watch the new season of Heroes =)

Addicted To HIMYM

2009-06-09T22:30:00.000-07:00

This is one tv series that I really love to watch and it's called How I Met Your Mother. The story is about a guy named Ted who relates his experience of his younger days to his son and daughter. He's friends with Marshall, Barney, Lily and his one time love interest Robin. I'm such a big fan of this show I've got most of their episodes from season 1-4 (few episodes still in downloading progress) and i can't wait to watch the new fifth season.

The cast members of HIMYM:

Josh Radnor as Ted Mosby

Cobie Smulders as Robin Scherbatsky

Neil Patrick Harris as Barney Stinson

Jason Segel as Marshall Eriksen

Alyson Hannigan as Lily Aldrin

Harder Than You Know - Escape The Fate

2009-05-09T18:09:00.000-07:00

You said this could only get better
There's no rush cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away (I'll go away)
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain
So where's the fire? You've become the rain

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you're driving me so crazy

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go (I guess I'll have to go)
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

So I'll make the call
And I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you cause I love you baby

And I'll make the call
I'm leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy

Leaving always drives me crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl You're driving me so crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

About The Last Post...

2009-04-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

This post concerns about the previous entry...It seems that that post has generated a "public outcry" among certain people in my college (as far as i know) so decided to delete it.

A warning: Follow them and you'll be on the safe side...Against them then consider you've "failed" the course.

Hello, Vain!...Goodbye Life~

2009-04-17T08:43:00.000-07:00

Hello Vain!

Yes, We Meet Again

I've Got Everything To Spill & Time To Kill

Here I Am Laying Out All My Feelings

Ready To Be Destroyed With Every Dignity

Goodbye Life!

Wave To It For One Last Time

There It Goes Right In Front Of Me

Bringing Along The Happiness I Ever Feel

Leaving Me Here With Nothing To Live

Here It Is The Application Of My Life.

-Edited in association with my grasshopper- =)

A Letter To God...Part I

2009-04-13T10:12:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

Hear My Prayers
Give Me The Answers To All My Wonders
These Sleepless Nights Surrounded By Fear
To You Only My Heart Would Be Clear

Hear Me Out Before You Shut
All My Confessions Inside This Lonely Heart
The True Colors I Try To Bare
A Lost Child If I Dare

Dear God,

When The Long Walks Has Reach Its Last Stroll
I'm Afraid I'd Be A Little Too Late
For Whom The Bell Will Toll
Time Will Not Let Me Change Fate

Faith Was Never A Strong Thing In Me
The Belief I Have Was Only For Everyone To See
But When You Shine The Light Whenever I Fall
It Gave Me A Reason To Forever Stand Tall.

-Edited in association with my grasshopper- =)

Crying Monalisa

2009-03-23T03:22:00.000-07:00

-18th August 2006-

Staring at those pictured eyes and i can't look away
Your beauty sparks a thousand words but i didn't know what to say
Because you looked so fine so i stayed
And if you ever cry i could break
So please don't cry my Monalisa
I'll wipe your tears and make you cheer and smile
I will be here to make you feel alright.

Walking thru this memories and you're still in my head
The picture never seems to fade coz i could never erase
You're beautiful smile had made me stay
And the moment you cry my heart breaks
So please never cry my Monalisa
Coz I'm here to stay.

For Better Days

2009-03-22T05:13:00.000-07:00

10th November 2007

When everything seems so dark
You’d came with a light so bright
This heart could melt just seconds away
And you’d always make me the best of everyday.

I am complete knowing you’re here
I feel the love you have for me that’s so dear
Because no other can give the same way as you do
And you’ve always kept me believe what we have is true.

I’ll make each day as if it’s the last day
So I could appreciate the smallest things you say
And I’ll turn the clock a while longer just for tonight
So we’ll have a moment of our own to share in this dim room light.

And if tomorrow will ever comes
Then you will know that this feeling is alive
Not just for another day, a week, a month, a year or so
But till we age old & mature to realize we can still go on forever.

And if today is still never enough
Then I’ll go through the very farthest length
To find the faith you lost in me in times of broken heart
So you could be happy to see me live this life through all your days.

Everyday

The Last Goodbye

2009-03-22T05:12:00.002-07:00

Counting the time...
Turn back an hour ago you’d still be here,
Turn back the minute you walk away I wouldn’t have let you leave,
Because for every second I have I would cherish every moment of my time with you.

I look back reflecting...
Am I too late to tell you what you always wanted to hear?
Could I still catch you from behind and let all this thoughts out?
Would you feel the same way as I do before you leave me alone?
The worst feeling to bear right now would be losing you.

Walking away...
Every step back away from you feels like losing my direction,
I’m without a needle to point where I’m heading now,
Because in this big space feels so much emptiness,
For without you by my side everything doesn’t seem right.

Starting the day...
Knowing you're not here around me its hard to cope with,
Dealing with all these emotions no one to share it with,
But your voice from a thousand mile keeps me close to you,
No matter how long it takes its still worth the wait.

Before I Sleep...
I pray that you’d be safe in God’s hands,
Though far apart you'd still be in a special place in my heart,
I wish all the best in your pursuit for your dreams,
And hoping you'd someday find your way back to me.

-CLOSER-

2009-03-22T05:12:00.001-07:00

Closer to you is where I want to be
To feel the joy and share the sadness you oftenly see
I want to hear the beat of your heart
And kiss your skin while I touch your soul

I’ll keep you warmth from the breeze and cold
So you could feel the touch of my hands
Slowly embracing you with love, tender and care

Closer to you is what completes my day
Without a moment of you my world could seize to stop
Your presence made this paradise a different place
But in your absence, beauty won’t look the same way

I wish for everything that you’ve always dreamt of
These sleepless nights are worthy just to watch you sleep
Dreaming away with that innocent look on your face
The unintended smiles and the giggles in your sleep

I rest peacefully knowing you’re with me;
Safe and home

-LOVE FOOLS-

2009-03-22T05:09:00.000-07:00

Love hurts
Love lies
Love takes
Love breaks
Love only creates another heartache

Love is untrue
Love makes you weak
Love is so ‘beautiful’
Only for the beautiful

Love gives no value
Love gives nothing back to you
Love to hate love
Anything what love tells you

Love is unreal
Love makes no sense
Love has no means
Coz love is no more to me

Can love be any more cruel?
When love only makes you a fool

-A Momentary Existent-

2009-03-22T04:55:00.000-07:00

Sunday, August 31, 2008

We keep hiding behind these lies
Pretending we're something that we are not
Trying so hard to make believe that all this is true
But i can't run from the fact that i still love you.

As much determined and hard as i've tried
I just couldn't make you understand
Was it my fault or was it all never meant to be
So i leave it to fate wherever it brings me.

I don't runaway when my feelings still here
But just hoping to bear it never seems too clear
The unending frustration keeps hitting me by
Whenever we meet, whenever we say goodbye.

Its so easy to say anything but meant it in a different way
What we we do may sometime contradict whatever we say
What we call love may only be just a fling
A temporary moment exist for the short while in time.

10:41 AM

-Sweet Little Tree-

2009-03-22T04:53:00.000-07:00

Bear With Me Sweet Little Tree
The Roots You Hold Will Keep You Strong

Leaves You Breathe, Hope They Seeds
Grow My Tree And Never Sleeps

The Storm Will Come To Test Your Strength
To Test Your Will And Tear You Down

But Don’t Give Up My Little Tree
Do Stay Strong And Stay Believe

-Now Or Never II-

2009-03-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

Sunday, August 31, 2008

as i close my eyes
i can imagine you staring me
with that look of yours so convincing
making me weak to my knees

as i went to sleep
i can feel u holding me
embracing me tightly
never letting me go
not even for a while

when we dream
we dream of being together
we share ourselves forever
never be far no matter

let no time tear us apart
let no distance weaken our feelings
let no obstacles try to fail us
and let nothing comes between our love

its now or never...

12:15 PM

-Now Or Never-

2009-03-22T04:46:00.000-07:00

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Will The Stars Grant Our Wish?

When You Keep Making A Slow Pace

When Things Can Get You Confuse

Will You Yet Maintain Or Be Indecisive?

When The Stars Don't Appear To You

Would You Still Hope And Pray For It?

Will You Try To Earn And Win My Heart Baby?

When The Lights Are Faded On Hope And Faith?

What Would It Take For You To Move?

A Single Step Towards A Life Journey To happiness

Or Are You Divided By The Feelings You Share?

Its Now Or Never On This Roller-Coaster Ride.

12:53 PM

Poem Of The Sea

2009-03-07T15:51:00.001-08:00

A Glance Of Beauty
Covers Her White Skin
Rain Wash The Face Away
Leaving Me Cold & Breathless.

Thrown Out To Nowhere Sea
Dazzled By The Warm Breeze
The Lightness I Feel
Couldn't Take Me Away.

Her Purity Lies Deep
Untouched By Any Other
The Scenery Was A Beau
Felt Like Closer To Paradise.

Her Voice Gentles The Earth
Tamed The Wildness In Me
I Turned To Face The Blue Sea
As I've Never Faced It Before.

She Brought With Her
Rainbows Of Life
That Colors In Me
Red As My Heart.

-21th September 2005-

About You

2009-02-22T02:20:00.000-08:00

I Couldn't Sleep For Tonight
Thinking Every Moment Of You
I Feel So Lonely Inside Out
Without Your Touch I'm Powerless

My World Keep On Spinning
My Heart Constantly Beating
I Feel Alive By Every Breathe You Gave

My Egos, They Shy In Shame
My Fears, You Drove It All Away
You Kept Me Safe In A Safe Spot
A Place High Inside Your Heart

You Made Me Weak To My Knees
I Can't Contain This Feelings
It Wants To Be Free
It Doesn't Want To Be Lonely

Tonight, We'll End This Fantasy
And Turn Dreams Into Reality
Coz You Are My Heart & Soul
You Bring Me Happiness That I Treasure most
I Seek For No More Other Than Love From You.

-14th August 2005-

Me

2009-02-12T17:25:00.000-08:00

Emotions
They Scream
They Laugh
They Cry

Feelings
Inside
I Hide
I Confide

This Life
It Breaks
It Change
It Fakes

This Heart
This Soul
You Make
You Take

-10th August 2005-

Rainbow

2009-02-12T16:06:00.000-08:00

Rainbow,
Colors The Life In Me
Turning Grey Into Beauty
Beauty As It Could Be.

I Watch It,
Hanging Across The Sky
Looking In Full Awe
And Graciously In Silence.

Rainbow,
Those Running Lanes
Comes In Different Colors
Meant In Many Ways.

Without It,
I'm Dull And Plain
So I'll Follow It
Where The Rainbow Ends.

-5th August 2005-

You

2009-02-12T04:06:00.000-08:00

You are the light in my life
That colors everything in my way
You're the reason that i live
Showing a different side of me
You made me see things clearly
When you saw me feeling down
You heard all my whispers
And listen to my every words
You made me believe in hope
Giving me faith all the time
Your never ending love and care
Have never had any limits
In times of happiness and sadness
You were always there to be with me.

-3rd August 2005-

Sorry

2009-02-12T04:00:00.000-08:00

I'm Sorry I Wasn't Good For You
I'm Sorry I Couldn't Be The One You Want
I'm Sorry I Can't Go On Being This Way
I'm Sorry I Shouldn't Have Said It All
But Most Of All I'm Sorry That I've Failed

I Never Felt Regret Coz I've Tried My Best
I Do Feel Happy For You When You Found Someone Else
I Know It's Too Late To Say But What Else Can I Do
I Know It's Hard To Let Go Whether We Like It Or Not
But When It Come To This Forgiveness Is It's Only Key.

-3rd August 2005-

Someone Special

2009-02-12T03:01:00.000-08:00

There Was This Girl,
I Adore, I Admired.
Who Made Me Smile,
When She Does The Same.

Her Ways, Her Smiles,
Spells Beauty
All Over Her Face.

But Words,
They Never Seems Enough,
To Describe Her,
Who She Really Is.

Coz I Know,
She's More Than Something,
And Everything,
That Made Her Special.

-28th July 2005-

Addicted To Love

2009-02-12T02:53:00.000-08:00

Love To Say What I Love About You.
Love To Hear When I Listen To You.
Love To Feel What I Felt About You.
Love To Be In Love Whenever I'm Around You.

P/S:
First Attempt At Poem Writing (More Like A Statement Perhaps).It's A Very Short One Paragraph Poem Created Sometime In 2005.